Flare days

Severe, difficult, extremely painful flare days, one after another. This morning it feels that the pain killers together with a weak dose of Lyrica ease the pain to some extend but not completely. On the other hand, I did not try to get dressed before 10 am., and I am doing no exercising either. I'd need excercising for diabetes and weight loss but life is eternal balancing. These days excercising just makes me feel so much worse that I cannot believe I profit anything from it. There was a time when I went through very thorough and heavy exams all over my body and functions due to severe blood cell production problem. No fault was found, no cancer, nothing. My doctor's opinion was that the pains I felt messed up everything. It all normalized when I could use Lyrica and it helped to eliminate, or ease, the pain (because it was not completely away all the time). Now the pain is back and I am afraid it will all start all over again. I cannot use the maximum dose of Lyrica anymore because it makes asthma get much worse. When I have halved the dose now it probably helps, I don't know - anyway the feelings of pain that are left are enough to make me call it severe, burning, rough, desperate, whatever. I tolerate it because I have no alternative. Otherwise I'd call it unbearable.

Fibro Flare

Unable to write a proper post although there'd be so much to write about. I am really seriously in pain and nothing helps. This is probably the worst flare I have been having for ages. I cannot do a simple thing, and I hurt incredibly much all over. Why must Lyrica make asthma symptoms worse so that I cannot use it? So far nothing else has helped so much (or at all). Twitter seems to have severe security problem (?) - blah.

First World Humanitarian Day celebrated

http://terrance.who.int/mediacentre/podcasts/WHO_podcast_075.mp3

Allergy

Today I finished decluttering and cleaning the porch. It looks really decent now. Then I put all the basilicum that I had been growing into the dryer and in 1,5 hours they were crispy dry. Now I have one year's supply of basilicum. Thanks Gos it is in the jar and the lid is on. Because handling them made me sneeze and it made my eyes burn - it is really hot stuff. Took antihistamine and feel a bit feverish, I feel like not wanting to meet anyone, only those very-dear-to-me people. I feel tired - this is a really bad allergic reaction. All I want is go to bed with a book - if I can read, that is. My eyes are burning thoough I have applied eye drops.

Anyway it felt good drying them, and all that working with hands, doing something which will be there over the winter to use and to remind of summer.

Car service tomorrow.

No need for pain killers today. Back feels weak, had to rest it once in a while when cleaning.

Happy photos

Today I was clening the entrance of the house. It had loads of electric garbage which had to be taken out and away and my DH took care of that part so it is now relatively empty. I then also found some items that we had brought back from my brother's house after the fire which killed him. He had no family so it fell pretty much on us to take care of everything after the accident and to be honest, I have even today posted some formulas that the insurance company wants to have in order to be able to decide on the matter. Anyway, I found some of his photos that had survived the damage. I have been watching them this evening and uploading them to my laptop,and internet folder. I feel happy when watching them because what is so obvious there is that everyone is happy and feels well. I look at myself with my son, I am wearing an apron and feeding him, and I smile - my brother took that photo. I see another one where he is holding my son, I took that photo - he looks happy too. In one picture we are having breakfast and laughing from the bottom of our hearts - my brother took that photo. I miss him, but it feels good we have had happy moments with each other.

Being able to do cleaning work is something HUGE when compared to how I have been feeling the past days... weeks... months.... wooow.... it was not easy and I had to take breaks but it was really amazing... I even used the vacuum cleaner for a long time, and it was a heavy surface to be vacuumed, not to mention that it was dirty... I can breathe... I can accomplish things.... amazing! Those photos that I found, and all this activity - I feel so happy tonight!

Ken vaivojansa vaikertaa...

"Ken vaivojansa vaikertaa
on vaivojensa vanki:"
"Ei oikeutta maassa saa
ken itse sit' ei hanki."
J.L.Runeberg

I have postcrossing as a hobby (www.postcrossing.com) (my user name is Fennougri). I upload all the postcards I receive on Postcrossing web page. However sometimes I receive more postcards than just the one to be registered. Lately, I received a card from a graphic designer in Amsterdam. Marilyn Grando. She had included a card which she had designed herself, as a souvenir from Finland. I upload it here since in Postcrossing, it is only possible to upload one card per sender.