September 6th, 2010

Accidentally too much stretching yesterday caused all-day ache today, plus a new blackmark so I have managed to cause an extra internal bleeding in the wound area - luckily it is not so big and since it's not getting worse, it is most likely healing. – 6 Syys – välittäjänä Facebook

September 5th, 2010

Feeling tired today. Been to church, and for a walk which made my legs stiff. Not in a very good mood. – 5 Syys – välittäjänä Facebook

My body is not co-operative today. I went for a walk and my legs got stiff so that walking was really really weary. (It is part of the FMS sydrome.) I am feeling depressed about the situation... anyway, the stitches were removed from the armpit on Friday and the nurse said it looked fine. I have been looking at the wounds daily and they seem to look different each day, but no doubt the healing process is going on. Putting clothes on is difficult because I cannot stretch my right arm as much as I should without pain, and if I stretch it with pain like I did yesterday, I will have the pain there all day. I am doing the exercises I was advised to do when I was in the hospital, it is to remain the mobility of the shoulder and to stretch the muscles and remain a good posture (mmm.... gain a good posture in my case LOL). I try to do the household work I can do but also there, days vary and sometimes I can put dishes in the dish washer, sometimes I have to leave them in the sink. I hate to think that I should do any work at all but I have to, at least I have to accomplish the calendar and the home town magazine... I feel stressed when I think about people being impatient about them...



I am happy of my family. It is giving me time and space to recover, and their love and presence, and support and encouragement. So it is with you too. It is good to have friends too, on- and offline.



Church day today. The preach was about gratitude. Last time I was there, it was about healing. It feels like tailor-made for me each time. :)



Something I have struggled with and where I got a solution lately: I have always thought that forgiving means forgetting too. I have first recently realized that they are two different things. Forgiving is something you do with a decision, and it has nothing to do with memory or feelings. It is something you can reason about. Forgetting on the other hand is a memory thing and you cannot reason with memory, it has its own ways of functioning. Think that I had to be 52 to realize this!
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Mo Yee Ho God is wonderful, He is healing and we, remaining a heart of gratitude.
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Ugri Fenno Amen! - I wish you will enjoy your trip tp the fullest, I am so happy for you!
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Mohamed Elsheikh Hassan Al Hamdu li ALLAH ( praise to the Almighty God ) for your safety
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Ugri Fenno Thank you Mohamed! God bless you!
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September 2nd, 2010

Took away the tape from the first surgical wound. Had not seen the scar before, it looked quite neat. Will have the stitches removed from the other one tomorrow. I am getting annoyed on them - it is really impractical and irritating to have stitches in the armpit! Happy to get them off! – 2 Syys – välittäjänä

I am enjoying these fresh sunny autumn days, they feel wonderful! I am going out for a walk today, and also to the pharmacy - a dull thing to do but needs more medication, blah - on the other hand, glad there is medication when you need it! :) – 2 Syys – välittäjänä Facebook

I told the doctor I have asthma and therefore cannot take all pain killers. Now I have just noticed - as this coughing and shortness of breath goes really wild - that I have BOTH a pain killer AND antibiotics that DON'T go with asthma. Stopped taking the pain killer and tomorrow morning I will have the last pill of antibiotics and then I hope my breathing probs will be over! – 2 Syys – välittäjänä Facebook

August 31st, 2010

The scar in the armpit is hurting. Pain killers make me tired. Soon it is time to take the obligatory nap again... – 31 Elo – välittäjänä Facebook

Sleeping at the keyboard... – 31 Elo – välittäjänä Facebook

Hello folks... I am sorry I am not online, "there", so much... I could not imagine this kind of tiredness possible! Everything is as it should be because I was told in the hospital it would be like this... I am okey, just tired... exhausted... I will love to see you when I get less tired! Take care! – 31 Elo – Kommentti

August 29th, 2010

The operation was done and everything went fine. The tumor got out together with 2 cm marginal and the x-ray dept and the surgeon agreed that it had come out completely. Now I have three weeks before the next check, during wihich the scars should heal. It looks good for both of them - the other one was made in the armpit to pick out a few lymph nodes to check if the cancer had spread. Nothing was found - they made a radio-isotopic scan before the operation, and a colour scan during the operation, and nothing was seen in the microscope either during the operation - now it all goes to patological research to study the matter more closely. I will hear then... if there is something found, the next opereation will be very soon, but it is not likely that they find something. Anyway, I don't think anything about it before I hear the results. To begin with, I have 6 weeks sick leave. It is for recovering from the operation - if there is some radsial thereapy to follow like there most likely is, it should mean prolonged sick leave. But we'll see then.



I feel fine, I have felt fine all the time. I have enough pain killers so I don't feel much pain in the scars which is a good thing, and they both seem to heal nicely so far. But I am really, really exhausted. I cannot understand it but there was some specialist in the hospital who came to see me and tell me what would follow and she said the operation would be followed by an incredible tiredness. So things are as they should be, I suppose :D!



I am mostly lying in bed and reading, and taking a nap in between - very often. I don't sleep well at nights, not yet, but I suppose it will settle with time too. I will write more details later.
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Mo Yee Ho feel good soon, wish you a speedy recovery, and good news follows.
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August 28th, 2010

Back from hospital (already yesterday) and feeling remarkably better. So far no other tumors found. The existing one has been removed with 2 cm marginal, means that it has come out completely. The surgeon was very skillful! All went as planned and everything was just fine. Sick leave for 6 weeks. Thank you all - it's not over yet but at least this surgery is over and all went really fine! – 28 Elo – välittäjänä Facebook

August 25, 2010

I'll be in the hospital tomorrow morning at 6.45 a.m., see he surgeon and receive the radioactive injection at 7.00, have the tumor marked with steel thread in the x-ray dept at 7.30, and then I'll be the 2nd to be operated that day, i.e. it will be done before noon. I'm healthy, rash is not too bad - just excited. Thanks for support, pls keep praying! :) – 25 Elo – välittäjänä Facebook

Rash got worse, could it be mental? I hope the tunor will be removed tomorrow as planned anyway.