This is my health blog. I have other blogs out there too, like http://fennougri.spaces.live.com/ and also other blogs in Blogger, about other things in life.
I have fibromyalgia, high blood pressure, diabetes, asthma.I try to lead as normal life as possible. I work, have family, hobbies, friends - often with inhuman efforts but I do. It takes a lot of patience to cope with all of these and with normal life in addition, but I do my best.
Have been writing short, 14-line texts. I feel so incredibly exhausted that I cannot believe it is true and comes out of writing. And when I write I doubt all the time: do I really say something essential, is this bare nonsense and filling of space that I am doing or does this carry longer ... carry some substance... does it tell anything to anyone... am I telling things that everyone knows... is what is clear to me clear to everyone else... is every word I use the best possible one... do I use worn-out expressions... the exact length of the texts, and those innumeerous questions that cross my mind all the time when writing and weighing every word... what else could I be but incredibly exhausted. And I am not even finished with it yet. What a combination: a most challenging writing work and haste... only this day - already turned till evening - and Sunday to accomplish it all... tomorrow, there will be other tasks - work again, but this time traveling.
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